Molly-Mae Hague feels like she let herself down at her fiancé’s boxing match last weekend.
The 24-year-old was in attendance at the Manchester AO Arena when Tommy Fury, 24, went head-to-head with YouTube and Prime boss, KSI (Olajide Olayinka Williams Olatunji).
While Tommy emerged victorious, upon reflection, Molly says she experienced feelings of embarrassment as her fiancé’s ‘support system’.
The Filter By Molly-Mae founder has been vocal in the past about how difficult she finds it to watch Tommy in the ring, and it seems this time was no different.
Taking to her latest vlog, Molly recounted the mounting stress she felt ahead of the fight.
“I don’t think I realised how much [my nerves were] affecting my mood the run up to the fight. Honestly the last couple of days I have literally been on cloud nine, like it feels like the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders.
“I don’t think I realised how much the buildup to the fight and the anxiety – I just don’t think I realise how much it was affecting me – since he’s come home with the win we’ve had the most insane couple of days,” she explained.
While initially saying it’s ‘probably the last time’ she’ll go to one of her fiancé’s fights, she immediately backtracked and said: “I say that – it won’t be because I will drag myself there like I did with this one!”
Speaking as to why she felt ’embarrassed’ with herself as Tommy’s support system, the former PLT Creative Director admitted that her ‘head was on the ground the whole entire fight’.
“I physically could not lift up my chin to look at the ring and watch the fight. I don’t know what happens to me in those situations. I wouldn’t change it for the world because I know it makes him so happy and I’ve been over this quite a few times now but I just it’s quite hard,” Molly confessed.
The mum-of-one added that she feels she let herself down.
“I really wanted to be like a strong support system for him on Saturday and I felt like I was just up until the point of the actual fight. Honestly guys, I was a mess, a literal mess. I couldn’t eat, couldn’t speak, literally felt like I was going to faint, be sick.
“I don’t know why I get so nervous and it wasn’t like the actual fight. I think it’s just feeling the pressure of being his support system and being the one that truly knows how he feels and knows him inside out. I don’t know what’s going on with this it’s just a mad feeling. The fact that, this fight, I was there ringside, I was like ‘oh no, no, no, no,’ like not for me whatsoever I can’t.”
Molly gave props to Paris Fury, the wife of Tommy’s brother Tyson Fury, describing her future sister-in-law as a ‘strong woman’.
“I don’t know how Paris does it. I don’t know how any partners of boxers do it. I take my hat off to you because I can’t do it I am useless. I wish I was that strong woman like I’m going to be there for my man.
“I said to him before he went I said, ‘Just remember that it’s nights like these that when you’re an old man sat in your rocking chair and when we’re old together, and we’re telling Bambi’s children, we’re telling our grandkids stories and stuff these are the kind of things you’re going to tell them’.
“You’re going to tell them about the time that you like sold out the AO Arena and you had a huge fight and there was thousands and thousands of people there cheering your name. I said ‘the fight – forget about that for a second – just just soak it all in because these are moments that are just so crazy.'”
The former Love Island contestant promised to bring viewers ‘more vlogs’ and resume regular content where she is more herself without the ‘the stress of Tommy’s fight like just looming’ over her.
“I described it as a feeling of like you know when you’re in your car and you’re driving and then a hill suddenly comes like a big dip in the road. Or like you go down a roller coaster and your stomach just physically dropped.
“Every time I thought of the fight that’s literally what the sensation in my stomach was like and it was just horrible. Now that’s gone it’s just the best feeling in the world. I’m just feeling so happy right now and so lucky that we can enjoy this family time together.”