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18th Jan 2019

Woman shares heartbreaking post about losing her mum and it puts everything in perspective

A truly heartbreaking post.

Nikki Pennington is a blogger at Grief to Hope and she has shared what she went through after losing her mum to brain cancer eight years ago.

It goes without saying that is truly devastating to read but if you’re in the same situation as Nikki and have also lost a parent, her words may give you some solace.

The piece was originally shared in November but is getting lots of traction in recent days and it’s no surprise considering how beautiful Nikki’s words are.

Nikki has previously spoken about her mum was, and still is, her best friend in a moving piece she wrote for Pop Sugar.

The mum of one is 35 now and has a little girl named Lucy and like anyone who has lost a parent, she wishes her mum was still here.

In the post below she talks about how she searches for her mum everywhere even know she knows she’s not here anymore. If you’re lucky enough to still have your mum, give her a call today.

Here is Nikki’s piece in full:

“And when she dies you’ll search for her no matter how long she’s been gone

You’ll search for her the minute she leaves in that very room

You’ll search the sky

You’ll search online

You’ll search group forums

You’ll search old messages

You’ll search old text messages

You’ll search old letters

You’ll search old cards

You’ll search for her

You’ll search old high school yearbooks

You’ll search old photo albums

You’ll search the memories of old friends

You’ll search her things

You’ll even search the crowds

Even though someone told you she’s gone, you’ll still search for her

And when you are walking down the aisle, when your baby is born and when the holidays come around, you’ll search the room for her

When the days are hard and when they are good

When the times are difficult and when they are so good that pure joy is filling your soul

When you are sitting on your back porch trying to sort out all your problems you’ll look over because even if for a minute you’ll be searching for her

Then one day you won’t have to search any longer because you’ll find her

You’ll find her in the gentle breeze

You’ll find her in the words to your favorite song

You’ll find her in your child’s smile

You’ll find her more and more as the days pass and then one day you’ll realize she’s been there all along

You didn’t need to search far to find her because you are her daughter and that means a part of her is always with you”.