Such a strong woman.
*Content warning for pregnancy loss.
Jessie J has just shared the heartbreaking news that she has lost her baby after the third scan revealed there was no heartbeat.
Jessie, who had not publicly said she was expecting, revealed the sad news on Instagram on Wednesday evening, telling her followers that she isn’t quite sure how to feel.
Posting a picture of herself with a positive pregnancy test, she revealed in the caption that along the way she ended up miscarrying.
She wrote: “Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying “seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience I am pregnant”.
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“By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down.
“After going for my 3rd scan and being told there was no longer a heartbeat.”
Feeling as if she has no control of her emotions and could “regret posting this”, Jessie insisted that she still wants to perform the show, knowing singing will help with her grief.
“I have done 2 shows in 2 years and my soul needs it. Even more today. I know some people will be thinking she should just cancel it. But in this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and self love therapy, that hasn’t ever changed and I have to process this my way,” the singer said.
“I want to be honest and true and not hide what I’m feeling. I deserve that. I want to be as myself as I can be in this moment. Not just for the audience but for myself and my little baby that did it’s best.
“I know myself and I know I would talk about it on stage because that’s who I am. So instead of a tearful emotional speech trying to explain my energy. This feels safer.”
“I decided to have a baby on my own. Because it’s all I’ve ever wanted and life is short. To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again.”
Explaining that the “sadness is overwhelming”, she reassured fans that she knows she will be ok, and resonates with millions of other women around the world that have gone through pregnancy loss too.