Amanda Holden has spoken out about overcoming the traumatic birth of her second daughter Hollie.
The Britain’s Got Talent judge, who has two daughters with husband Chris Hughes, suffered complications and lost a lot of blood when she gave birth to Hollie (3), to the point where doctors weren’t sure she would survive.
Thankfully she pulled through, but afterwards she sought counselling to help her deal with the trauma of the experience.
Amanda with her husband, record producer Chris Hughes.
She told Good Housekeeping: “My therapist told me I had no more tools or coping mechanism left. She was very good at giving me sentences to say to myself to make me stop panicking about my own mortality.
“I think you have none of these worries unless you’ve got children. If it had just been me and Chris and I’d died, it would have been awful for him but nowhere near as bad as a child losing their mother.”
With her fellow BGT judges Simon Cowell and Alesha Dixon.
The 44-year-old added: “It makes you suddenly think, I have to live. I’ve got to live, but I’ve got to try and live a good, happy life for me too and I think that’s why I faced up to the fact that I needed to speak to somebody. It was a really good thing.”
As for having more children, that’s something that Amanda has ruled out. She explained: “I’m not allowed. I would be dead the next time… I’ve got the two I’m supposed to have. I just had to complete my family to feel like I could be me.”